How many times have I felt sick to my stomach and no clue why
How many times have I searched for answers..From a beautiful Blue sky
How many times have I been ill
Compared to how many times it actually dawned on me
How many times have I wanted to Vomit,
Because I felt that it would set me free
Give me control because nothing else ever goes my way
Maybe this time my pride and integrity could stay
How many times have I self destructed because I couldn’t run
How many of you noticed and cared? Just one
How many times did I thank him for giving me something to lean on
How many times did I ignore him, well aware that I was wrong
How many times a day do I go from great, to awful, confused.. Or sad
I feel them all and they mix.. It gets bad
I don’t want to count all the bad and forget the good
I have to continue to focus.. I know I should
My life is slowly molding..I see the formality
Sit back and watch my Dreams turn to reality
